26/09/2020

i mam at the compute so many looks like ages & rarely that I seem to forget what to do next Today I have been asked by M Harishchandra to write a review for his 25th anniversary of his Gandhi Hospital I wrote the full review and saved it to mthe  Desk top but I cant find it I spent some time writing a review but more time looking for for it!! I keep telling my self BRUSH UP But i do  not understand what has got over me to be Is it sheer laziness   Disinterest in anything Self pity or just nothing to do  I don"t really know Only thing i tell myself is pull yourself UP I do not know how I am going to do it or do i really want to do it Yes & NO together

let things go on Day in to Night & so on I feel  like a outsider looking down on myself  & saying with a sigh  JUST HOPELESS  & a GONE CASE                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       Let it be  Let Life drift  till I really wake up that is  the big Q                              

03/01/2019
 After a gap of one year here I am at it again  tomorrow is my birthday &I will complete 68years of my life & stepping into the 79th!!
 
I never ever thought that i would still be a Guest on this Planet earth   I remember when we were in our Teens me & my friends  when we were in the medical college the oldest we wanted to be on this was 50 years!!!! That number was such a big distant number that we could never think beyond this   Now all of my friends have crossed this boundary & are in the 7th or early 8th decade of our lives as teenagers this age was for us like on the HORIZON which we never  thought could be reached  But here we are.  All of us in different parts of the world  & I should say "still going strong"

Looking down from this 'perch' of mine I am really astonished at myself & my friends who at one time thought that reaching in to this Horizon  was next to impossible  This proves nothing is Impossible in LIFE!!

we all have grown in age & i suppose wiser with the ways of the world & our life we all are grand parents now - which was something we thought could never  happen At that young age a grand parent was so very far off & a long way to go  that we never thought that we too would one day be here at a perch & would be able to look down from our perch

Well we should take each day as it comes & thank GOD for this BONUS each day & also be prepared to say the FINAL GOODBYE very happily & fully satisfied with way we have traversed the path of LIFE up & downs  rough paths green & cool a beautiful paths Happy times sad ones all a mix up of a "KHICHADI"
But i must say my path has all the good & some  bad taste But the Journey was worthwhile and I would never exchange it for anything else

Outlook.com - Microsoft free personal email

Outlook.com - Microsoft free personal email:



'via Blog this'via 



  My Garden And some Child hood  Days 12/12/2017







A garden full of colours with exotic flowers pansy carnation hollyhocks sweet peas nasturtiums poppy jasmine tuberose gardenias lily roses gerberas n many more varieties a winter n summer garden was a of riot of colours to the eye n the awesome fragrances of to the nose A cactus which grew to the height of a small coconut tree with its exotic thorny flowers No camera to capture the beauty but it is all captured in the minds camera forever Also learnt grafting roses from my dad n was amazed at the result Never ever thought of plucking these blooms which bloom for only 24hrs some a few days unlike the orchids that bloom for a few months Never plucked flowers except to collect the seeds to distribute n spread the riot of colours the butterflies that came for the blooms r also memorable I am glad that I still like to see the beauty of Gods creation though I have only some colourful Hibiscus n some wild flowers adding colour whose names I do not know I am glad that I do not belong to the thought that Flowers bloom only to be plucked!!




My childhood was amazing with the simple pleasures of life which  i realise now. Simple things like cycling early  every morning during the  school summer holidays  to the Sangam [ I lived in Allahabad ] Having a quick dip in the Ganges river playing around a lil bit  and cycling back with wet clothes &wet hair flying in the air  and a joyous heart filled  with overflowing happiness was the way By the time I reached home my clothes were wet rather almost dried &; hair all dried up  i started my day with my sister n brother in tow Looking back i thing what a way to start the day with the simple pleasure &; also exercise At that time it was pure joy and exhilaration  At that age exercise and  dieting  to keep fit never ever crossed our mind -unlike now  Our activities took care of that without realising it.



this is one activity which stands out in my memory I hope my sister &; brother will recall this memory if they read this



Also now i am told that having a dip at the sangam once washes away all our sins. I have lost count how many dips i have had --may be enough to wash away sins not of this lifetime but multiples of the seven births we are supposed to have! !!! 




 The school was from 10 Am to 4 PM   Morning time was spent in a little bit of studies  some little house work to help my mother either sweeping or mopping shared with my sister bath and lunch and off to school on the cycle with took about 30 minutes to reach  I used to love school I think more because of meeting friends Back home by 4.30 pm Have a quick tea n eats which mother used to keep ready Then again back to the sangeet samiti  again on the cycle where i learnt Sitar N Bharatanatyam I have a diploma for the dance  for two years junior diploma  equivalent to the12th standard  degree &; 4 years  of 




Sitar senior diploma equivalent to  BA degree [ I had to discontinue this as i left to study Medical degree in Ludhiana ] I was back home by about 7PM then back to homework studies dinner & then a little bit more of studied till sleep overcame 

Sitar senior diploma equivalent to  BA degree [ I had to discontinue this as i left to study to continue my ambition of becoming a Doctor


this continued till i left Allahabad my home time to join  Medical college  to become a Doctor which was my ambition from the time i was 5 years this I thing rang the bell for the end of my joyful



 care free  child hood 



 I remember the awesome HOLI celebrated with buckets of different colours at all my  and friend houses  with  the pitchkary Oh what wonderful times  we has special coloured stained dress for each Holi which we saved & wore for the next Holy  Thus we did not spoil our clothes every year but recycled them!!



what a child hood it was 




I would give anything to go back again But am happy that my memory is so crystal clear that I can go back down memory lane anytime and be at that time & age physically!!

Facebook My Garden And some Child hood Days 12/12/2017 A garden full of colours with exotic flowers pansy carnation hollyhocks sweet peas nasturtiums poppy jasmine tuberose gardenias lily roses gerberas n many more varieties a winter n summer garden was a of riot of colours to the eye n the awesome fragrances of to the nose A cactus which grew to the height of a small coconut tree with its exotic thorny flowers No camera to capture the beauty but it is all captured in the minds camera forever Also learnt grafting roses from my dad n was amazed at the result Never ever thought of plucking these blooms which bloom for only 24hrs some a few days unlike the orchids that bloom for a few months Never plucked flowers except to collect the seeds to distribute n spread the riot of colours the butterflies that came for the blooms r also memorable I am glad that I still like to see the beauty of Gods creation though I have only some colourful Hibiscus n some wild flowers adding colour whose names I do not know I am glad that I do not belong to the thought that Flowers bloom only to be plucked!! My childhood was amazing with the simple pleasures of life which i realise now. Simple things like cycling early every morning during the school summer holidays to the Sangam [ I lived in Allahabad ] Having a quick dip in the Ganges river playing around a lil bit and cycling back with wet clothes & flowing hair flying in the air and a joyous heart filled with overflowing happiness was the way By the time I reached home my clother were wet & hair all dried up i started my day with my sister n brother in tow Looking back i thing what a way to start the day with the simple pleasure & also exercise At that time it was pure joy and exhilaration At that age exercise and dieting to keep fit never ever crossed our mind -unlike mind Our activities took care of that without realising it. this is one activity which stands out in nmy memory I hope my sister & brother will recall this memory if they read this Also now i am told that having a dip at the sangam once washes away all our sins. I have lost count how many dips i have had --may be enough to wash away sins not of this lifetime but multiples of the seven births we are supposed to have! !!! The school was from 10 Am to 4 PM Moening time was spent in a little mbit of studies some little house work to help my mother either sweeping or mopping shared with my sister bath and lunch and off to school on nthe cycle with took about 30 minutes to reach I used to love school I think more because of meeting friends Back home by 4.30 pm Have a quick tea n eats which mother used to keep ready Then again back to the sangeeth samity again on the cycle where i learnt Sitar N Bharatanatyam I have a diploma for the dance for two years junior diplma equivalent to the12th standard degree & 4 years of Sitar senior diploma equivalent to BA degree [ I had to discontinue this as i left to study Medical degree in Ludhiana ] I was back home by about 7PM then back to homework studies dinner & then a little bit more of studied till sleep overcame this continued till i left Allahabad my home time to join Medical college to become a Doctor which was my ambition from the time i was 5 years this I thing rang the bell for the end of my joyful care free child hood I remember the awsome HOLI celebrated with buckets of different colours at all my and friend houses with the pitchkary Oh what wonderful times we has soecial coloured stained dress for each Holi which we saved & wore for the next Holy Thus we did not spoil our clothes every year but recycled them!! what a child hood it was I would give anything to go back again ButI am happy that my memory is so crystal clear that I can go back down memory lane anytime

Facebook:



'via 

  My Garden And some Child hood  Days 12/12/2017



A garden full of colours with exotic flowers pansy carnation hollyhocks sweet peas nasturtiums poppy jasmine tuberose gardenias lily roses gerberas n many more varieties a winter n summer garden was a of riot of colours to the eye n the awesome fragrances of to the nose A cactus which grew to the height of a small coconut tree with its exotic thorny flowers No camera to capture the beauty but it is all captured in the minds camera forever Also learnt grafting roses from my dad n was amazed at the result Never ever thought of plucking these blooms which bloom for only 24hrs some a few days unlike the orchids that bloom for a few months Never plucked flowers except to collect the seeds to distribute n spread the riot of colours the butterflies that came for the blooms r also memorable I am glad that I still like to see the beauty of Gods creation though I have only some colourful Hibiscus n some wild flowers adding colour whose names I do not know I am glad that I do not belong to the thought that Flowers bloom only to be plucked!!


My childhood was amazing with the simple pleasures of life which  i realise now. Simple things like cycling early  every morning during the  school summer holidays  to the Sangam [ I lived in Allahabad ] Having a quick dip in the Ganges river playing around a lil bit  and cycling back with wet clothes & flowing hair flying in the air  and a joyous heart filled  with overflowing happiness was the way By the time I reached home my clother were wet & hair all dried up  i started my day with my sister n brother in tow Looking back i thing what a way to start the day with the simple pleasure & also exercise At that time it was pure joy and exhilaration  At that age exercise and  dieting  to keep fit never ever crossed our mind -unlike mind  Our activities took care of that without realising it.

this is one activity which stands out in nmy memory I hope my sister & brother will recall this memory if they read this

Also now i am told that having a dip at the sangam once washes away all our sins. I have lost count how many dips i have had --may be enough to wash away sins not of this lifetime but multiples of the seven births we are supposed to have! !!! 


 The school was from 10 Am to 4 PM   Moening time was spent in a little mbit of studies  some little house work to help my mother either sweeping or mopping shared with my sister bath and lunch and off to school on nthe cycle with took about 30 minutes to reach  I used to love school I think more because of meeting friends Back home by 4.30 pm Have a quick tea n eats which mother used to keep ready Then again back to the sangeeth samity  again on the cycle where i learnt Sitar N Bharatanatyam I have a diploma for the dance  for two years junior diplma  equivalent to the12th standard  degree & 4 years  of 

Sitar senior diploma equivalent to  BA degree [ I had to discontinue this as i left to study Medical degree in Ludhiana ] I was back home by about 7PM then back to homework studies dinner & then a little bit more of studied till sleep overcame 

this continued till i left Allahabad my home time to join  Medical college  to become a Doctor which was my ambition from the time i was 5 years this I thing rang the bell for the end of my joyful

 care free  child hood 

 I remember the awsome HOLI celebrated with buckets of different colours at all my  and friend houses  with  the pitchkary Oh what wonderful times  we has soecial coloured stained dress for each Holi which we saved & wore for the next Holy  Thus we did not spoil our clothes every year but recycled them!!

what a child hood it was 


I would give anything to go back again ButI am happy that my memory is so crystal clear that I can go back down memory lane anytime

Blog this'

  My Garden And some Child hood  Days 12/12/2017

A garden full of colours with exotic flowers pansy carnation hollyhocks sweet peas nasturtiums poppy jasmine tuberose gardenias lily roses gerberas n many more varieties a winter n summer garden was a of riot of colours to the eye n the awesome fragrances of to the nose A cactus which grew to the height of a small coconut tree with its exotic thorny flowers No camera to capture the beauty but it is all captured in the minds camera forever Also learnt grafting roses from my dad n was amazed at the result Never ever thought of plucking these blooms which bloom for only 24hrs some a few days unlike the orchids that bloom for a few months Never plucked flowers except to collect the seeds to distribute n spread the riot of colours the butterflies that came for the blooms r also memorable I am glad that I still like to see the beauty of Gods creation though I have only some colourful Hibiscus n some wild flowers adding colour whose names I do not know I am glad that I do not belong to the thought that Flowers bloom only to be plucked!!

My childhood was amazing with the simple pleasures of life which  i realise now. Simple things like cycling early  every morning during the  school summer holidays  to the Sangam [ I lived in Allahabad ] Having a quick dip in the Ganges river playing around a lil bit  and cycling back with wet clothes & flowing hair flying in the air  and a joyous heart filled  with overflowing happiness was the way By the time I reached home my clother were wet & hair all dried up  i started my day with my sister n brother in tow Looking back i thing what a way to start the day with the simple pleasure & also exercise At that time it was pure joy and exhilaration  At that age exercise and  dieting  to keep fit never ever crossed our mind -unlike mind  Our activities took care of that without realising it.
this is one activity which stands out in nmy memory I hope my sister & brother will recall this memory if they read this
Also now i am told that having a dip at the sangam once washes away all our sins. I have lost count how many dips i have had --may be enough to wash away sins not of this lifetime but multiples of the seven births we are supposed to have! !!! 

 The school was from 10 Am to 4 PM   Moening time was spent in a little mbit of studies  some little house work to help my mother either sweeping or mopping shared with my sister bath and lunch and off to school on nthe cycle with took about 30 minutes to reach  I used to love school I think more because of meeting friends Back home by 4.30 pm Have a quick tea n eats which mother used to keep ready Then again back to the sangeeth samity  again on the cycle where i learnt Sitar N Bharatanatyam I have a diploma for the dance  for two years junior diplma  equivalent to the12th standard  degree & 4 years  of 
Sitar senior diploma equivalent to  BA degree [ I had to discontinue this as i left to study Medical degree in Ludhiana ] I was back home by about 7PM then back to homework studies dinner & then a little bit more of studied till sleep overcame 
this continued till i left Allahabad my home time to join  Medical college  to become a Doctor which was my ambition from the time i was 5 years this I thing rang the bell for the end of my joyful
 care free  child hood 
 I remember the awsome HOLI celebrated with buckets of different colours at all my  and friend houses  with  the pitchkary Oh what wonderful times  we has soecial coloured stained dress for each Holi which we saved & wore for the next Holy  Thus we did not spoil our clothes every year but recycled them!!
what a child hood it was 

I would give anything to go back again ButI am happy that my memory is so crystal clear that I can go back down memory lane anytime

getting old [continuation]

Except getting old graciously  it feels nice when kids call u Ajji.  There is a age for doing anything do what suits u n give u joy  no matter if it seems odd to others Do not brood n feel sorry if ur kin n friends do not have time for u Understand that they/all have their own lives to run          Never wallow in self pity  by imagining problems or would be problems even though they r not there Live ur life at your pace U do not have to compete with anyone Never think of"what others would say" 
Be happy n find peace within yourself

Keep yourself occupied with anything u fancy  reading cleaning embroidery usic Computer & the net
one can spend hours with this very effectively & satisfactorily

It is never too late to learn anything new

join some club around you like the Rotary club Ladies club Book club hobby club Local Library  One will meet many people & also learn abt other things to do 

keeping oneself occupied  is very important to keep mentally/physically  healthy N happy  

On Getting Old

On Getting old

yes aging has taught some positive & negative things  

It took me real long that i am getting  old  It dawned on me real slow motion things that i could do in a jiffy took longer & longer& LOOOOONGER First time i realised that i am slowing down due to aging 

My  mind mentally I am   still in the second decade but physically i have passed seven and a half!!  I still am not able to get used to this idea but slowly learning  to adjust my age & physical fitness 

Now have to take steps slowly watching each foot forward to make sure I do not fall Also realising that I am bit Unsteady in Balancing my self as i tend to fall more often Nothing serious but i have to be careful  Even if i go out i have to make a effort to catch up with who ever i am with Mostly the person understands & try to keep my pace That's what good friends are  for  also i notice any strangers on the street is always willing to help with a kind hand when needed  When i look back I have done this to many elderly when i was younger Feel that History is repeating I realise that good deeds done by one comes back sometimes double fold

Simple things i used to do before takes longer  now sometimes it comes as a shock to me as i was a very active person  almost putting in 48 hrs into the 24 hrs of the day No not anymore Now irealise that i cant put in even  24 hrs or less each day Old habits die hard   i thought But know they just shrivel up without even realising  then one says Ok that's it & go along  doing ones best Many times do not feel happy about bit but then there is no choice also i feel the it is easier way out to give up somethings & go on doing what one ncan better

about food now there is no thing like Oh i want this or that well u eat to sustain sometimes rarely there is a urge to eat something & it is nice to oblige oneself  & feel happy about it 

when i go out i feel so tired as if i have done so much load of  work  Simple  task like going  to the bank shopping for groceries vegetables seems like WORK before it was relaxing  I also have developed the habit  of postponing  anything that does not need IMMEDIATE attention is shelved for 'some other time' without any remorse 

Before i never left todays work for tomorrow but now it seems ok N no guilt about it

My watching TV is also gone diown  as i find things which used to interest me now does not do so any more Watch only a 2-3 serials I prefer News Channels now

Loneliness is the other factor but i have got used to it now My own company with sweety N tinku is good enougg & satisfying

I used  to crave for someone to call but not anymore I   know all have their own works of getting along with their own lives so no hard feelings or sadness  It is part  of life & growing older also one feels forgotten but again the youngsters have their own  life No place for anyone in the shadows

I am grateful that  am on my own two feet & do not have to depend on anyone financially I shudder to thing all those who are not  lucky as me  to them  life must really be hard &pathetic But i feel it must have been so for them most of the life so ui suppose it is ok for them     I feel so only from my perspective

As in the Film Bhagban My favourite all will have to go thru this phase of life for better or  worse